yeah so here i am dead sick all day yesterday.

my pc dies, i didnt care, my head was killing me all day, super dizzy, couldnt hold food, tossed my cookies enough times to.... i'll end it there...

so it's little one's bed time... boy have i been stupid.
he comes in & hopes i feel better, talks to me some, my eyes are bright evil-die-you-die red & i can barely hold my head up i'm so weak.

he offers to get me food or water & i say thx but no i'm ok... gonna go to sleep in a bit.
i'd been in bed since 3pm sleeping on & off, feeling like :poop: .

yeah... so he comes in at his bedtime & wishes me better & *omg here's how stupid i've been*... brings me his favourite, never leaves his side at night-time stuffed animal...
"he always makes me feel better and you will to."

okay... if i had no attachment i'd be like "yeah whatever, he's dirty, smells a little questionable... Ewww get it away from me."....

but i am...
it took ALL my energy (what little i had of it) to sit there smiling while he talked to me for the next CENTURY!... ok 5 minutes.

he left, shut the door...

i totally lost it.

and slept a decent night's sleep.

so i still have a lingering migraine, wondering if i ate something horridly evil... still kinda dizzy & just all over not totally well... but i'm feeling better.

so i've been complaining about being selfish!!!!

*damn me, damn me to the light*

(yeah didnt make much sense... but who wants to go to hell.... really?)

so i'm in better spirits, other half is super ill too... but his is due to meds... cant hold food as in he :poop: 's a lot! :lol:

poor thing... he's so dehydrated & i keep forcing water down his pie-hole. :giggle:

anyway... so that's my personal guilt trip on me.

not that I wont complain anymore... c'mon... i AM a woman!

but that i am seeing SO MUCH more clearly now how stupid i've been... or rather... how blind.

I think I'll go Febreeze the dog before he gets home.

:toothy: