jlaporte

well where do i begine. I have ben around but lurking as been busy. thats the good part. on the other had my son. well he has PTSD and hdhd. well friday he decides to break all the rules. he never has done anything like this before. he takes offf after school to a kids house i never met the parent of had no adress or anything! i told him in the morning he couldnt go. he didnt follow the procidures i have to be able to go. anyway he decides to go. he called at 5 saifd he was there. i was like r kidding i told u not to go. he said he didnt care. i said find a ride home. yea ur in trouble. he says whatever. so i try to call his bluff and not get freaked by this. so hubby and i take the other 2 boys for dinner come and hang out. well we fell asleep. uncle got in from work at 1130. still no kid. i panic now,finally find a number with no name and call its that kids number. my kid says why r u calling here ur pissing me off. i say i dont care u need to be home why aint u here. oh i cant get a ride so im spending the nite. i say no. he says i dont give a crap. well after 30 mins of bs some woman answers the phone all full of attitude. i have no idea what lies my son has said but she is accusing me of all kinds of things that r sooo not tru. at one point she is calling me a drunk! saying i sound lit and how pathetic i didnt know where my kid was. i said he is with you. he has no permission u need to tell me where u r so i can get my kid. at first she says no. so uncle calls the police in this process my husband gets an adress. we have police meet us there. we finally get my kid. cops say well just take him home nothing we can do. ok we go home no speaking at all! all go to bed. well we wake up he is sleeping still so dh goes to wake him to take his meds. 3 tries later i call on him. he gets all pissy and cocky but finally takes his meds. he is super sweet to everyone else but me. is making faces and saying nasty remarks.anyway i tell him to go clean patio so we can do a fire pit later.he gets all pissy i did nothing wrong wth is ur problem why do i have to do this. i say its chores u need to do it. he gets out side and gets in my uncles face. so i go outside,dh is in shower.at some point he comes out behund chris, as we r arguing. tells him to calm down. well out of nowhere he throws a metal lawn chair at me. so uncle calls cops again they come and well they took him to hospital. hub is a wreck uncle is upset. luckily 2 other boys are on other side of house on swings. we made sure the youngest had no idea what was going on. he loves his brother but he doesnt need to see this,anyway.he has been in hospital over nite and will b there tonight. hopefully they can help. this has been going on for to many years.i dont kno what else to do. i take him to the dr i get his meds. i try to talk to him i try everything.but our safty is questioned by him now. what else can i do?? i hurt so much but i know i need to keep together for my family.i dont understand how my baby boy wond up like this. i know it has to be some sort of chemical imbalance but why hasnt any one been able to help??i kno my kid blames it all on me,anything wrong in his life is my fault. but he makes his choices not me.

so i just spilled everything out hopeing it will give me some ease of my heart. so please dont spam me or be negative i do not need that right now. i just really needed the support of the few friends i have made here and posative thoughts for my family.i want my baby better so we can b a happy family.