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Liane

This is really bothering me

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by , 07-19-2010 at 11:54 PM (390 Views)
Ok, I have to get this off my chest. My dd uses the computer in our office and that is fine. I have no problem with that. When I use it, it is to print things and do updates and what not. Yesterday I went on the computer and there were things in the recycle bin that I was not sure what they were. So I restored them and checked to see if they should be deleted. My daughter is really honest and I trust her. When I read this one thing it was something that she wrote. In one sentence she wrote that she is used to being let down by me because I didn't take her to the movies. This bothered me because I am a SAHM and I take my daughter to all sporting activities, the library and their activities, girl scouts and whatever. This child is not lacking in activities or opportunities. It really hurt my feelings. I know that she didn't think that I would see it, but the fact that that is how she felt was a blow. She is so important to me and for her to feel that I let her down over something so trivial is just a let down to me. I know that she is a teenager and I know that I had worse feelings about my own Mother. For me, I try not to say I will do something and not do it. If I make a promise I keep it. Why we didn't go to the movies, I don't remember. It was in February and I was planning a suprise birthday party for her, so that might have been it. Don't know. I showed what I read to my daughter and we talked about it. She said that she was mad. I get it, but it still hurts. It just feels like it is never enough.

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  1. Early Bird's Avatar
    I can sympathize.

    Figure this: she is changing so much in these years, and emotions are all over the map. It isn't about you.

    My oldest is 16 -- and I go from Worst Mother In The World to Almost a Saint about 5 times an hour in her opinion. I just roll with it.
  2. nodmicks's Avatar
    I know that stuff sure can hurt. I have teens. Their emotions are a tempest
  3. Liane's Avatar
    I remember how I felt as a teen but this jumped me out of no where. This week I was thinking about it and thought, let me just take the knife out of my heart and try to not let this kill me. I felt much better after I wrote about it. It really helped me get it out of my head. Thank you for your comments. You guys are awesome