This morning, I am waiting for a call from the vet, who came out yesterday and drew blood from Samson. If she calls to say that there has been improvement, then we continue the rounds of antibiotics, appetite stimulants, probiotics, and now sub-Q fluids. If she calls to say there has been no improvement, then I have to find an emergency vet to come and euthanize Samson. So, rather than go out and torture him with being poked by needle after needle, once it is light enough outside, I'll go out and
Updated 01-22-2011 at 07:05 PM by madhen
Today I get a lunch invitation from a friend. I was not sleeping well last night and was not feeling well plus the weather is windy here.
Since I haven't seen my friend (let's call her D) for a long time, I agree to meet her without considering my condition (my mistake) and also want to purchase some cheap cosmetics because they have a dollar store at that mall, I wasn't fit enough and was depressed. When I took the taxi cab, BF was on the phone and I was telling him that I was depressed
Updated 01-22-2011 at 10:58 AM by lyra
3-4 days ago, I was deep in depression and didn't have the energy and will to leave the house. I was too anxious to go out. Yesterday I forced myself to leave and do some errands, I was feeling a slight attack at first but then it fades and I was back into my normal self going on with the activities.
Friday, 21 Jan 2011 Update
Today I have a dinner invitation from a friend, at a restaurant. I am a bit anxious about going to a public place which is crowded and meeting people.
Updated 01-22-2011 at 07:56 AM by lyra
One thing I realize about my anxiety is that sharing does help, big time. My mom never talked to anyone about her anxiety, but I witnessed her panic attack during a flight overseas with her in the airport. It was frightening to watch your parent get an anxiety attack, as a child because, you don't know what's going on.
She refused to talk about it like it was some sort of embarrassing thing. Later she told me that she talked about it in church during church
Updated 01-22-2011 at 07:57 AM by lyra
The Steps I am doing to Take Care of Myself & Deal with Anxiety & My Depression
I don't want to depend on chemical prescriptions because I did those before and it made me dependent on drugs. Besides, the side effects were not pretty.
After I educate myself about the anxiety and its connection to my digestion, I begin to list down my anxiety attacks and realize that all of them were related to my stomach. They happened after meals. I realize that something needs
Updated 01-22-2011 at 07:59 AM by lyra