Sara's Self-Image Journey

Had a really good relationship day today. I was able to express some things that had gone right, and some things that have bothered me without feeling awkward or embarrassed about saying them. DH and I had some really good connection today, and we even talked about changing sleeping arrangements.

I wanted to write down something that I realized a while ago while talking to a friend and don't want to forget - sometimes you just have to accept someone for who they are, and that also ...

It's been a few days, and I honestly wanted to write a blog entry to keep up the habit.

Tonight I painted my nails. I've been trying to do this all week but haven't be able to find the time between Owen and Oliver. I tried the Ombre trend, and while it looks ok, I'm not sure I'll do it again. I'd really like to go back to acrylics, but I don't like the cost for the upkeep or the chemicals. But they look so much better and never chip. It's a tough call.

Yesterday ...

I still find this difficult, but last night I managed to at least keep up some of the self-talk about DH's mood not being about me. He went to bed early and wasn't very talkative - so my first impulse was the jump in and try and fix his bad mood because it must be my fault. I managed to hold myself to checking on him twice, both very brief visits, and at least keep up the positive self-talk in my head (don't take it personally, it's not your fault, the best thing you can do is let him work through ...

Went to get my toes done today. I did a really good job just having a conversation with the two women next to me. I always have a hard time making friends, which is why I don't have many. I've been trying to work on my people skills, and honestly, sometimes just holding a conversation makes me nervous. But I did pretty well today, I was very proud of myself. I've been trying to work on having some meaningful personal interaction every day - even if it's just talking to people in the grocery ...

A few updates...

I feel like lately my relationship with DH has been greatly improving. We've managed to stay connected on several levels. I've also been able to better manage it when I don't get immediate responses or feedback. When he's distant or doesn't answer, my usual reaction is to assume he's mad at me and panic. I'm trying to not take it so personally, and this week I've been better at not taking it so personally. Not perfect, but better.

The scale hit ...