I've had a pretty rough year. I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. Which is weared because i've always been in love with life but that I guess changed almost yrs ago. See two years ago I gave birth to a beautiful baby boy. Afraid of loosing the love in my life I gave him up for adoption. It has torn me into two. My fiance does not understand why I cannot cope with this. See he didn't want any children and I do. Thats something I guess you could say I've craved. I've seperated myself from my friends and most of my family. I'm afraid I've put a great strain on me and my relationship because I did not follow my heart.

How do I cope? How can I love my life again? These questions haunt me daily.