I miss my sister!

**mystypooh** · 11-17-2011, 12:04 PM

Today is my sister's birthday. If she were still alive she'd be 35 yrs old. She died at a young age and left behind a son who is now 5. I just wanted to remember her on this day and share what a great person she was.

If you were ever in any trouble she'd be there with open arms. If you just needed to talk to someone she'd be there for you. She gave me unconditional love even after having major fights with her. She'd been known to help her friends who seriously needed it, whether it was money, or a place to stay. Years after fighting with my sister....we had made up....I sent her a birthday card telling her how much I loved her. When I went to her house to help my parents clean up- after she passed away- they found that birthday card with her "special" stuff. So I'm hoping she knew how much I loved her.

We were really close when we were young but as we got older all we did was fight. It continued on this way until she had her son and for some reason all that petty fighting ended. We had more in common that way I guess, or we just grew up. We did not live close but in separate states, yet we talked all the time on the phone about her son, my kids, family, or just life. So I had three years with her to build our relationship. It was great! I feel bad because two days before she died she had called and I didn't answer. I thought "I'll call her later." I was busy trying to get all three kids fed, bathed, and then help with homework. Unfortunately, I got the call that she died before I had tried calling her back. I will always feel that guilt for not calling her right back. So many things cross my mind that she might have needed to say, or wanted to say and I didn't take the time out to listen.

I'm upset that her life was taken too early, that her son was left without a mother. I'm grateful for that time we had but it was too short. I feel cheated.

I know my mother must be hurting today but I can't call her at work. Need to let her know that I'm there for her if she needs me....right now I kind of need my mom.

Thanks for listening. I'll be just fine. I go through this every now and then. It's only natural. I'm just really missing her lately.

Happy Birthday Sissy! I miss you and I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

**Debbie-cat** · 11-17-2011, 12:16 PM

Oh mystypooh I am so sorry for the loss of your sis. I am sure she is watching you from above and smiling.

**moasmom** · 11-17-2011, 12:28 PM

Thanks for sharing those memories with us. It's important to keep departed loved ones in our thoughts; that way, they live on.

Kara

**Darlene** · 11-17-2011, 01:13 PM

She felt your love and will be a part of you always. Her son will know her through you and all that loved her. I'm sorry you are hurting.
Big hug.

**mystypooh** · 11-17-2011, 01:36 PM

Originally Posted by Debbie-cat

Oh mystypooh I am so sorry for the loss of your sis. I am sure she is watching you from above and smiling.

I know she is Debbie-cat and thank you.

**mystypooh** · 11-17-2011, 01:46 PM

Originally Posted by Darlene

She felt your love and will be a part of you always. Her son will know her through you and all that loved her. I'm sorry you are hurting.
Big hug.

We send pictures to him all the time of her or him and her together. I only get to see him once a year, if I'm lucky, but I do talk to him on the phone monthly. I try to tell him all about her but he forgets and then I have to remind him. He's only five, very hyper, and has a short attention span, lol. Thank you for your kind words.

**Rhiamon** · 11-19-2011, 12:24 AM

I am so sorry for your loss and grief. Losing a sibling no matter what age is hard. I still often think of my brother and what type of man he would have become. I find looking at pictures and having a good cry when I am missing him the most helps. I tell my DD all about him all the time.
I also find talking out loud to him makes it seem like he is hearing what I am saying.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

**nodmicks** · 11-20-2011, 08:10 AM

Big hugs to you! I know just how you feel. My belated brothers daughter is also 5.

**mamamia** · 12-10-2011, 01:38 AM

I am so sorry for your loss, but I am so glad you and your sister didn't let the petty stuff stop you from having a good relationship. I'm VERY sure that she felt the same! I'm also hoping we can all take a lesson from your experience, and remember just how delicate life really is. In the end there should be nothing much that stops us from forgiving one another.

Sending along hugs along with many thanks for sharing your story. I hope somehow it eased some of your pain.

Theresa

ps-forgot to mention that i'm so glad you stay in touch with your nephew. he's a little guy right now, but watch in a few years, he'll be calling you with questions about his mom. i personally would be tempted to make a "journal of memories" for him. i think he'd love you for it!

**bookwormpeg** · 12-10-2011, 02:10 PM

Hugs to you. She is always with you and knows you loved her.

**oheoh's momma** · 12-10-2011, 03:10 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. Your sister understood why u didn't come to the phone. She loved u and is smiling at you ..... There is no guilt in Heaven...Please remember the good and think more about that.... God Bless u and cal her son and your mom and talk about all the goods thing she was and is because it is in the people she left behind.. hugs Pen

**Carlad** · 12-11-2011, 08:07 AM

So sorry for your loss. Hugs to you!! I lost my mother this past summer and have been all over the place emotionally.

Hang in there!! You are in my thoughts and prayers.

**mystypooh** · 01-05-2012, 09:12 PM

Originally Posted by mamamia

I am so sorry for your loss, but I am so glad you and your sister didn't let the petty stuff stop you from having a good relationship. I'm VERY sure that she felt the same! I'm also hoping we can all take a lesson from your experience, and remember just how delicate life really is. In the end there should be nothing much that stops us from forgiving one another.

Sending along hugs along with many thanks for sharing your story. I hope somehow it eased some of your pain.

Theresa

ps-forgot to mention that i'm so glad you stay in touch with your nephew. he's a little guy right now, but watch in a few years, he'll be calling you with questions about his mom. i personally would be tempted to make a "journal of memories" for him. i think he'd love you for it!

That's a great idea, why didn't I think of that? The journal, I mean. Thanks so much. I think that no matter what age you are that that could mean a lot to somebody.