Update on my LIFE (probably long & boring!)

**heavensent_7** · 03-14-2003, 08:22 PM

Firstly and most important THANK YOU to all of you who prayed for my daughter. I really did appreciate this and if you have time to remember us in prayer please continue.

She came out of the hospital today and after two detailed brain scans and lots of tests they have decided that her blood is thickening in the damaged area. They are going to discuss with the powers that be whether they can safely bypass it now. But obviously this is brain surgery so either way sounds a bit grim to me, but then I'm not a Doctor. However for the time being at least things are stable again. Thank you all once again for all your thoughts, prayers and support.

Now - went on my 'date' which at first seemed very charming and easy to talk to. Maybe not my idea of completely drop dead gorgeous but very nice just the same. It transpired that he had sleeping with me on his agenda - which wasn't on mine, and did freak me out a little as it made me think about whether or not I could do 'that' with somebody again!! (had a knock on effect of lots of thoughts but I won't bore you here) I'm thinking already I should have done 3 separate posts coz you just won't read all of this but hey, now I've started LOL. (I'll bore you with the details another time LOL) Anyway now he keeps texting me and stuff and I'm totally sad and confused because.............

My ex DH STILLS swears he wants me back! And it's just come when I'm putting my life back together BUT it isn't together yet, and I'm VERY, VERY confused about this one and I dont want to mess up. First I suggested we saw each other at the weekends and he could 'prove' that he meant it and was going to change. But that means I won't have a break from the kids at all AND they are just settleing again, so for him to be on the scene, even sometimes might confuse them.

I feel a 'duty' to make it work BUT I just don't believe it will anymore BUT who knows??? and one thought leads into another and on and on.

I'm kind of thinking that (1) I'm not making any sense. (2) If I went through everything in my head we'd all be here all night! and (3) I really should have done 3 posts!!!

So this is the VERY basics of my dysfunctional life and whats going on. I'm happy to elaborate if you are interested but for now I'm just updating!

Thank you again for your prayers for Lucy.

And I apologise for gate crashing the village and driving you all mad

Lots of Love - Bev. xxx

**~Sherry~** · 03-14-2003, 09:39 PM

Bev~

I'm so glad things are stable with Lucy. I will keep you guys in my thoughts.

I wish you luck with your relationships as well.

And you can talk all you want here and we will read every word of it! Don't worry.

**Jerseygirl** · 03-14-2003, 09:55 PM

Sweetie, long rambling rants are some of the things we look forward to here! It's great to hear that health things are more stable-the rest will come together. Keep the faith! --Kellie

**Katybird** · 03-14-2003, 09:59 PM

Bev, I am so happy that things are looking better for your DD. I have had her in my prayers.

I am sorry that your date did not work out. He does not sound like a very good guy if he was already wanting to get "that friendly". I think you are probably better off without that one.
I know that you will figure out the right thing to do about XDH. Whatever you decide we will all be right here for you. We are hear to listen anytime you want to talk.

**heaven** · 03-14-2003, 11:06 PM

Bev, you say anything and everything that you want to!
I am glad Lucy is home from hospital I will continue to pray for both of you.
As for your relationships take them slow and take some time to decide what you really really want. I am so much help. Sorry i do try.
We love you hon, hang in there.

**captclearance** · 03-15-2003, 09:27 AM

I'm glad to hear things have stablized for Lucy, you and she are always in our prayers............ Just take things one step at a time and do what feels right for you........ It will all work out for you !
{{{{{{HUGS}}}}} for you Bev and Lucy !!!!!!

**SewCrafty** · 03-15-2003, 09:37 AM

I am happy to hear Lucy has stabilized and she is out of the hospital.

The agree with the ladies, he doesn't sound like the "right" guy for you. Don't worry the right guy is out there for you.

We love your ramblings Bev!! I make a point of reading everything you write. You are kind, funny, insightful and a whirlwind at decorating!! We love you!

to you, Lucy and your whole family, I think about you everyday.

**Darlene** · 03-15-2003, 09:52 AM

Great news about your daughter Bev. Like others before me have said, just take the relationship thing slow & easy no rush for any big changes. That is a pretty nifty gift to give yourself ~ the time to just take your time. Make any sense,lol?

**mrscornbread** · 03-15-2003, 12:03 PM

Oh Bev, ust like everyone else, I read all of your post. We do not think your life is bornig. Each one of us, reaches out to the others here for some comfort, but most of all a little understanding. I know when I have a problem and I post about I know that you guys cannot solve that problem, but it makes it so much easier to deal with knowing that someone "understands". I hope that you know that each time you have a problem you bring here, for that time it becomes our pain too. It hurts me when you are mean to yourself. You are a beautiful worthwhile woman, make sure you treat yourself that way so that everyone else will too. So glad that Lucy is doing better. Hold onto faith. I believe in you!

**Daphne** · 03-15-2003, 07:20 PM

I'm really so happy to hear that your dd is doing better. I will continue to keep her in my prayers.

Please just try to take a step back and focus on YOU and your kids!!! That guy you went on a date with sounds like a ....not so nice guy. That is ok....you will find someone. Just enjoy your wonderful self and all the wonderful things you give in life!!! Don't look for it to happen and trust me...it will!!

**voodidit** · 03-15-2003, 08:46 PM

Bev I'm glad Lucy is doing better and out of hospital.

As far as the date goes, you go your speed not his!

As far as the ex goes, all I can say is follow your heart.

**heavensent_7** · 03-15-2003, 08:59 PM

It's 2am here now and I've been talking to XDH all night!!! I'm really tired now but I'm still addicted enough to want to read some posts LOL. So going off to do that, just wanted to say first Thank you ALL for all your replys and I REALLY love you all xxxxx

Thank You! and (((hugs)))