small happy thought...

[perSue]

i was reading through a site the other day that was sorta an art/photography story telling site...
i came across this picture... what it was I don't recall, but it was the description that's stuck...
a girl was complaining to her friend about how she doesn't like how her whole family ignores her, and when they do give her attention they yell at her, tell her she's stupid, ugly, worthless & unwanted.
... sure this hit a sore spot w/me... but it's what the girl's friend said that sunk in deeply:
"the rest of the world isn't like your family."

i've been living like it was... like everyone else has those same thoughts & ideals towards me.

it was definitely eye-opening...

yet another holiday approaches, and i send a heart felt email to my siblings... not super long, but not a one-liner... and no response.
I asked a few questions & wished them happy holidays and I know I'll get no response.
I can still try... if it makes me happy, it hurts no one to send a thoughtful email. because not getting a response is what I expect now. So I'm not hurt.
But the rest of the "world" who I send a thoughtful email to, I will receive responses from... most of them at least. And this I expect... and love that they will take some time to put a thoughtful response to my email.

The world is not like my family.
Mostly, it's better.

[Jayceef]

perSue it is tough for me this time of year as well. Although I am in a family of five children and feel blessed that I get along really well with my younger sister, it can be hard sometimes. My older DS says really awful things to me or DH every year at X-mas. I have also come to the conclusion that not everyone is like my family. I hope you will have a wonderful X-mas this year. Sending good thoughts your way.

[celina]

my dad and i have issues and a friend who's given up on her dad asked why do i keep trying..and my answer is i can always say i tried...that i have no regrets on that front..that he's not the man he was i have to accept him where he is today and all i can hope is that he would do the same...

so try..because it makes you feel better