My condition
I have PTSD and Anxiety and things were quite heavy this past two weeks. I feel reluctant to leave the house, all I want is stay in. Sometimes it gets so hopeless that I feel I'm going to lose my mind.
My Background (regarding anxiety)
I remember in my childhood that my mom & uncle also has anxiety. My first anxiety attack happened in college when I was preparing for an exam. The second one happened at office during a stressful grueling schedule.
I had an incident PTSD back in 2008 that caused my anxiety to become more frequent. On top of the incident, I lost income stability when I decided to quit my office job and pursue a business from home. It doesn't bring the amount of financial stability I expected from an office job.
I guess, my condition right now, the worries about my finances in the back of my mind..did contribute to my escalating anxiety. To top it off, I was living in a messy room full of clutter because lack of knowledge of organizational skills.
Worse Panic Blow in 2011
Things taken it's toll and the worse blow of anxiety attack happened 8 days ago when I was attending a dinner invitation with a friend. During that time, due to worry, I wasn't taking good care of myself. I lack sleep, stayed up late (thinking) and go on strict diets depriving myself. Anyways, it messed up with my digestion system and causing indigestion which triggers my anxiety into full blown panic mode after the dinner.
I suddenly feel my heart beat racing after I finished my food and felt somewhat stuffed (the food was good). Weather was cold and I was depriving myself of food for 3-4 hours before dinner so clearly there was already gas & acid build up in my stomach. To cut the whole story short, it was scary for me.
My friend was anxious as well, watching me try to catch my breath. I took a cab ride home because I need to be home asap due to the attack. Friends actually planned to hang out a bit after dinner for talks and coffee and catching up. But I couldn't join them and they were very worried.
On the cab ride back home, a few burps really help me calm down and within 5 minutes, I am back to my normal self. After consulting with a medical doctor, it was indigestion leading to a panic attack full blown. It was indeed frightening and not to mention embarrassing as well.
I have PTSD and Anxiety and things were quite heavy this past two weeks. I feel reluctant to leave the house, all I want is stay in. Sometimes it gets so hopeless that I feel I'm going to lose my mind.
My Background (regarding anxiety)
I remember in my childhood that my mom & uncle also has anxiety. My first anxiety attack happened in college when I was preparing for an exam. The second one happened at office during a stressful grueling schedule.
I had an incident PTSD back in 2008 that caused my anxiety to become more frequent. On top of the incident, I lost income stability when I decided to quit my office job and pursue a business from home. It doesn't bring the amount of financial stability I expected from an office job.
I guess, my condition right now, the worries about my finances in the back of my mind..did contribute to my escalating anxiety. To top it off, I was living in a messy room full of clutter because lack of knowledge of organizational skills.
Worse Panic Blow in 2011
Things taken it's toll and the worse blow of anxiety attack happened 8 days ago when I was attending a dinner invitation with a friend. During that time, due to worry, I wasn't taking good care of myself. I lack sleep, stayed up late (thinking) and go on strict diets depriving myself. Anyways, it messed up with my digestion system and causing indigestion which triggers my anxiety into full blown panic mode after the dinner.
I suddenly feel my heart beat racing after I finished my food and felt somewhat stuffed (the food was good). Weather was cold and I was depriving myself of food for 3-4 hours before dinner so clearly there was already gas & acid build up in my stomach. To cut the whole story short, it was scary for me.
My friend was anxious as well, watching me try to catch my breath. I took a cab ride home because I need to be home asap due to the attack. Friends actually planned to hang out a bit after dinner for talks and coffee and catching up. But I couldn't join them and they were very worried.
On the cab ride back home, a few burps really help me calm down and within 5 minutes, I am back to my normal self. After consulting with a medical doctor, it was indigestion leading to a panic attack full blown. It was indeed frightening and not to mention embarrassing as well.