I need a hug, and a prayer for serenity.

**Jerseygirl** · 04-24-2003, 12:14 PM

Well girls, it's about to happen, the state is about ready to take princess Karla to a family member of her biological parents. They haven't told me just when yet, but I have to face the inevitable. I wasted the entire morning sittting in the hall of a courthouse only to leave with no more information than I arrived knowing. It could be days or weeks, I don't know. All I know is that I am in full scale panic right now. I have met every need of hers for the past 5 monthes. Stayed up nights with her, worked through all the food allergies and the teething, and now that she is a happy beautiful baby who is doing so well, they are taking her from me. Noone from casemanagement is calling me back. I have one other baby in the house right now and I think if he goes back that will be it for me, I can't handle foster parenting, I want to adopt so badley, and the state keeps taking them back. This is such a nightmare. Thanks for letting me unload, I can't even reach my mom right now and it hurts so bad.

**katiebug** · 04-24-2003, 12:29 PM

I am so sorry that you are going through such a hard time right now.

Sending good thoughts your way.

**Patchworkgirl** · 04-24-2003, 12:34 PM

I am so sorry that you have to go thru this. You have been such a god send to these babies....it just isn't fair!! I'll keep you in my prayers, and hope that you can find the strength to go thru this.

**captclearance** · 04-24-2003, 12:39 PM

I'm so sorry, I know it must hurt ! Enjoy whatever time you can with her ..... It isn't fair that they ask so much of you and give so little info......

**homesteadmamma** · 04-24-2003, 12:47 PM

Sweetie, pm me if you want. I know how difficult this is, I went through it with 23 kids. It rips your heart out. I'm sending lots and lots of

I'll be praying that God wraps you in a blanket of love. cj

btw - fight for visits with the family she is going to before she leaves your home. No matter how young she is, she needs to be prepared for the transitition. Its her rights!!!

**paelthom** · 04-24-2003, 12:55 PM

Here is a hug for you.

I don't think this is fair to you or especially to your little princess. I hope you can find a baby to adopt without all this heartache. There is someone out there just waiting for you. My heart truly goes out to you.

**AmyBoz** · 04-24-2003, 01:13 PM

I am so sorry...I have no idea how you are feeling right now, but my heart breaks for you.

**graci42** · 04-24-2003, 01:14 PM

I have so much admiration for anyone who has a heart so big they can love soooo many children. I don't know that I'd have the courage to give that freely. Prayers winging there way on angel's wings!

**vecollins** · 04-24-2003, 01:17 PM

That is terrible, you have been a "mother" to the children and then you have to let them go --that would probably be a sad day for me to.....I will be thinking of you, don't give up your dream of wanting to adopt and don't stop being a foster parent, you are needed!!! All the children you get appreciate you!!!!

**Sara Noel** · 04-24-2003, 01:18 PM

I am starting to cry just reading your post, so I can only imagine how you are feeling. I just wanted to tell you that I am thinking about you.

**CAGmomof2** · 04-24-2003, 01:21 PM

I will be praying for you and for your Dh as well.

**Heather** · 04-24-2003, 01:49 PM

My heart is breaking for you, I am so sorry this is happening! I am sending you a whole bunch of hugs and many, many prayers. Hang in there!! You have been a true blessing to Karla!!

**Darlene** · 04-24-2003, 02:01 PM

I'm so sorry this whole system is so messed up. You shouldn't be hurt this way. I don't know what else to say except that I will be thinking of you and Karla.