Emotional meltdown in class last night

**nuisance26** · 09-28-2006, 11:00 AM

It's been an emotional week for me. DH is away on a business trip and I've been having major guilt attacks about my son's speech delay. But last night at my dance class I was pushed over the edge and just started bawling. So embarrassing! The teacher (who is 23 and a sweetheart!) was telling the 5 us about the songs and costumes she'd picked for our recital in June. Last year I picked the songs and we assembled our costumes from what we had in our closets. And I had a blast. The costumes she'd picked were horrendously ugly. Fuschia or yellow halter dresses covered in big black polka-dots. I kept thinking..."This is a CLASS not a production", you know? She noticed I hadn't said anything while everyone else was excited. I said that I wouldn't be buying costumes, they were too expensive; a throwaway purchase. She apparantly doesn't think 2 $40 costumes and another pair of $60 tap shoes is 'expensive'. So I'm thinking, maybe I can get something that compliments everyone else, like wearing all black with a yellow scarf when she plays the music selections for us. Horrifying. "Can't stop the beat" from "Hairspray" and that really annoying chesnut tree song Katherine McPhee sang on American Idol last year. So while everyone else(a fifth grader, a sixth grader, and 2 twelfth graders) was practising she came to the back to talk to me. I didn't want her to take it personally because I understand the enormous responsibility she has to teach 200 students recital peices but I explained to her that nobody pays my way, I pay my way. It's my time, money and expression and that I would not listen to those song selections for the next 9 months. I just felt it slipping away from me. I've always wanted to do this and it was heart-breaking! So she arranged private lessons for me. She was really nice about it. But they must think I'm psycho.

Thanks for letting me vent!

**suzysaver** · 09-28-2006, 11:36 AM

I'm so sorry. Sometimes we just can't handle one more thing, don't be embarrassed.....we all loose it once in a while. You should have been informed about the costumes before these classes even started. Your probably just tired and stressed with hubby out of town, I hope you feel better real soon.

**tigo** · 09-28-2006, 12:33 PM

I am the same way. My kids have done different classes where we weren't told the expenses of costumes and so forth up front. People have different priorities and expenses but to have it dropped on you always gets my goat.

**DorothyBeverly** · 09-28-2006, 12:50 PM

I am sorry you are having a rough time. Nobody thinks your psycho, trust me, if meltdowns made you psycho, I'd be right up there!! Take it easy on yourself and relax if you can.

**PennyPinchinPam** · 09-28-2006, 05:43 PM

If she doesn't think $140 is alot of money then she can buy the costumes/shoes.

Don't be so hard on yourself, you are not psycho and you've got alot going on this week. I hope everything works out and you feel better.

**thriftstorequeen** · 09-28-2006, 07:07 PM

You are a wonderful mother!! You are such a role model to me in many ways!! Your son's speech problem is nobody's fault. He's wonderful just the way God made him. I love you so much! I'm sooooo proud to be your mother and the grandmother to your children. Knowning that you are bringing them up in the Lord blesses my heart. Stay strong girl! Hugs and Kisses, Mom

**Goodwin17** · 09-28-2006, 10:28 PM

Constance, I'm sending you big hugs!!! Thanking you again for my hug. I've had enough meltdowns at work now, and I'm sure it doesn't qualify as psycho. If it does, then I need a straightjacket by now

. It's so great that your mom is on here to give you hugs too! I hope you have good rest of the week. Take care!