April 16 Daily Accountability

[elphie]

WELCOME ALL!

Our creed is simple: No Judgment, just love, support and understanding. Through mutual SUPPORT and understanding as a TEAM, we'll experience a HEALTHIER LIFE together!!


ACCOUNTABILITY to ourselves and our teammates will help each of us to acquire a healthy lifestyle. Lending SUPPORT to others will help us strengthen ourselves.

We all share such precious life stories and maybe for the first time we found a place where we can be HONEST with our feelings and how we act out with food. For most of us it is EMOTIONAL EATING that gets us every time. It has many names; COMPULSIVE EATING, RESTRICTING, BINGEING, OUT OF CONTROL EATING, NUMBING, SELF-MEDICATING, whatever you call it we struggle with food and can't figure out why it is so hard!!

Some of us here are dealing with eating disorder (ED) issues but we all find the accountability to others and ourselves a much-needed resource!!!... COMMUNICATION with each other on a regular basis will keep us strong!

Did I eat mindfully?

Did I take care of and nurture my body?

Did I practice self acceptance and avoid negative self talk?

Did I use my tools of recovery? These may include meal plans, water minimums, journaling, etc.- Whatever works for YOU.

Did I share my experience with food for the day somewhere I feel safe and nurtured? This may be here, in this forum, with a therapist, a close friend, a group such as OA, etc.- Again, whatever works for YOU.

Did I select a word, phrase, and/or quote for the day?

[elphie]

Did I eat mindfully?

I didn't go into detail yesterday about my "no" answer but after two days in a row I think I should. I have eaten compulsively before bed two nights in a row. It was not a binge because I did not eat to discomfort or even stuffed but I definately overate, wasn't physically hungry, and ate mindlessly. I am not really sure what has triggered this return to old behaviors (when in the throws of ED my binges were always late at night) and my thinking about eating after everyone is in bed. The first night I thought it was because the internet was down and I wasn't able to distract myself with that. But then the next day I found myself thinking a lot about food, wanting to avoid other activities for food, and eventually eating compulsively again during my "safe" time. I don't know if the first event triggered the rest, if the HFCS from the first event triggered the rest, or if there is a deeper cause to it all. I don't think I necessarily need to know the full why to acknowledge and hopefully change the behavior.

Did I take care of and nurture my body?

not really

Did I practice self acceptance and avoid negative self talk?

I recognized and acknowledged when I started to beat myself up for the COE behaviors, still had the thoughts but tried to tell myself the truth in response. The truth is that I obviously needed something either physically or emotionally. Eating compulsively does not mean that I am worthless, that I have let everyone down, or that I am a bad person. It means I am human and that I am trying to figure out my current needs, which I was obviously ignoring and my mind/spirit/body found a way to make me take notice.

Did I use my tools of recovery? These may include meal plans, water minimums, journaling, etc.- Whatever works for YOU.

some, not all

Did I share my experience with food for the day somewhere I feel safe and nurtured? This may be here, in this forum, with a therapist, a close friend, a group such as OA, etc.- Again, whatever works for YOU.

here, but only briefly

Did I select a word, phrase, and/or quote for the day?

yesterday, no. for today I am reaffirming my goal to "be present"