Things have been up and down

**patra** · 03-05-2006, 06:31 AM

Hello-

been offline for most of my days-my husband is out on workmans comp, he injured his back in November.He will be having surgery soon.I am apprehensive.My mom was hospitalized recently and we now know she has emphysema and must quit smoking.The day I called the ambulance,she had collapsed, gone unconcious and I think she stopped breathing cause she turned blue-I was so scared I thought my mom had died.

At the same time my sister in law had gone into a women's shelter for battered women.

I started having seizures.I am schizo-affective and on multiplte medications and thought it was from one of those,but my doctor says they are most likely psychosomatic-that basically my mind controls them rather than my body or some such.So here my husband says I cant let it happen around Kira(my 18 month old.)I feel like I am doing this to myself.I am under so much stress- but there is a beacon of light.I have discovered a Kadampa Buddhism temple in my town and have been attending.I am learning much there,and am able to concentrate more deeply and guard my mind against some of this that is assailing me.I am going off( with my doctors say so) one of my medications and hopefully this will only help.

My daughter is also a source of joy for me.She is sweet and growing very fast.She is talking now and beginning to run.I remember like it was yesterday my trip to the hospital and being pregnant with her.How fast time has gone by.I think she is up now-just wanted to update-

Patty

**Vannie** · 03-05-2006, 07:03 AM

Oh Patty, I am sorry to hear of your troubles. I hope things will be better and less stressful real soon. Happy that you have your Kira to bring you joy.

Many blessings.

**AmyBoz** · 03-05-2006, 07:04 AM

**FrugalMomof3** · 03-05-2006, 07:40 AM

Patty,

I am sorry to hear about your family problems, I wish you and your family many blessings! You all are in my thoughts and prayers.

guest7 · 03-05-2006, 09:24 AM

we're here for you.

**patra** · 03-09-2006, 01:13 AM

Thank you ladies for your support.Its really been hard the past couple of years.I keep hoping things will get better and I know its my attitude that really needs to change.Life is going to continue regardless.

Patty