RIP Simba

[AnW819]

Today, my 2 year old male kitty passed away. We can home from vaca, and he was not moving, eating or drinking and I knew he was sick. We have no money so could not get him to the vet that night, but in the morning we found a vet who said they will do payment arrangements.

We took him there this morning and they rushed him right in. Said he had hypothermia, and was not breathing well so they put him in an oxygyn box and put him on top of warm water bottles.

So they told us we can go because they cannot do tests til he gets just a bit more stong. They said call back at two. We stayed in the area til 1:30 and called them to see if they found anything and they said he was doing good and tests are not back yet but will be soon so we can go back to the vet and wait there.

We get there and the girl says would you like to see him? We go in the back and see him in the oxygyn box and he looked comfy and resting, and 5 minutes later he tried to stand up, gasped, took his last breath and fell over. He passed away then.

I can't get the picture out of my head. And Wayne and I will not stop crying. I have never seen Wayne cry like this before. He was really like our child; being we cannot have kids. He was so loving. So unlike a cat, and more like a human.

My dads dog is here now. The dog is looking for him everywhere. Under the bed, the closet....Simba and the dog use to always play these I am gonna kick your butt type games.

I cannot stop crying. It feels like a dream. Everything I do or see reminds me of him. Even my bed, where I am now how he use to sleep in Waynes spot when Wayne would leave for work. I am so lonley. So sad. So heartbroken.

And mad. Did I mention mad?? Why would God take my cat away from me? What was the reason. He was one of the only things that ever made me truly happy. And for him to only be able to live 2 years??? I am not mad at God, I guess just mad because I don't understand.

And the worst part is, my other two cats may have to suffer through the same thing the vet said. =[ My poor cats.

Will I ever get over this? I feel like I lost a child. What am I suppose to be doing?? How am I suppose to be feeling?

I am like $800 in more debt to a vet, and catless.

I just wish 1 thing, just 1 thing could be good in my life. I know that sounds selfish, but gosh, I keep getting hard hit after hard hit.

RIP boo boo =[

[Palooka]

Oh no! Poor Simba.

So sorry. *hug*

[frugalfranny]

So very sorry for your loss.

It is really hard losing a 'member of the family' which is what our pets become.

[AnW819]

Thanks to the both of you.

I think I forgot to add, we found out it was feline lukemia.

[pollypurebred39]

Oh Ashley, I do understand. I'm so sorry.

[nadine64]

So sorry to hear about Simba! So devastating and sudden. I know how pets are like family. He was blessed though to be in your care for those 2 years. My deepest sympathy to you, sending hugs.

[ladykemma2]

he was very lucky to have found you and lived with you.

[onencgirl]

So sorry for your loss. My 'Gracie' was 13 when I lost her. It took my almost 2 years to get another kitty.

[daughter of pearl]

Aw, sweetie, that's so sad! Pets are like children and they always love you! I am so sorry for your loss!

[ilovechocolate]

I am so sorry for you and your loss. I have had many cats through the years, and it is never easy losing any of them. But you did the right thing by making sure Simba was cared for at the end.

[frugalfriend]

I'm so sorry, Ashley.

[alotofgooddeals]

I am so sorry for your loss...are you going to have the other cat's tested? I believe there is a shot that can be given to them to prevent them from catching leukemia..
Take care....

Thanks to the both of you.

I think I forgot to add, we found out it was feline lukemia.

[JanieD]

There aren't words to ease your loss, but we understand & are here for you. It's very difficult to have a vet bill that did not make Simba well. But at least you did everything you could for him.

[AnW819]

Thanks everyone. Today does not feel any easier. I feel asleep easy last night. My brother came over and watched movies with me while Wayne was at work. I just feel numb today. No real emotion. Ugh.

I am so sorry for your loss...are you going to have the other cat's tested? I believe there is a shot that can be given to them to prevent them from catching leukemia..
Take care....

The vet said that unless we want to know if they have it, it is pretty pointless because there is nothing they can do for them if they have it. If they don't have it, well, Simba is gone, so they won't get it. I am not going to get them tested. Not only do I not want to know because I don't want to worry every day my cats are going to pass, but also, I really do not have the money right now.

I became one of those pet owners who use to make me sad who do not give their pets the best care because they do not have money. But, my cats are well fed, have lots of toys, and lots of love. And when it comes down to it, when my cats do get sick, I do my very best to get them help. Like Simba. But nothing would of helped my baby =[

[ubumartin]

Here is a lovely poem about how much our pets mean to us. Author unknown. I am so sorry for your loss. I burried this poem with my cat Patches. It makes me cry every time I read it but I believe you will be reunited with your beloved Simba.

Rainbow Bridge

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...