a new thought came to me in the past day or so.
i think i'm afraid of socializing...
this is hard for me...
my mum growing up never allowed ppl in the house, never went out w/friends - i always even wondered if she had any.
even now, w/all her kids grown and families of their own, she's 'stuck' in her house... goes to work, comes home, wakes up for the next day.
never leaves the house except for errands. never sees or even talks to people on the phone.
she gets along w/many ppl... but never does anything "friend-like" with them... going out for coffee, lunch, to talk... nothing.
and it's THIS that I'm afraid of becoming.
YET... at the same time, I feel like I'm afraid to approach people. I don't know where it stems from really... I just know it's awkward for ME to go out and socialize...
I don't know how to get out there and meet people to make friends...
I guess I could look into joining a craft club (so long as it's inexpensive!)... but then I get into the feeling of _guilt_ for "leaving my family" at home...
I know... I'm a laundry list of insecurities! lol
please, any thoughts or input is appreciated...
no offense will be taken for truthful words.
thanks
i think i'm afraid of socializing...
this is hard for me...
my mum growing up never allowed ppl in the house, never went out w/friends - i always even wondered if she had any.
even now, w/all her kids grown and families of their own, she's 'stuck' in her house... goes to work, comes home, wakes up for the next day.
never leaves the house except for errands. never sees or even talks to people on the phone.
she gets along w/many ppl... but never does anything "friend-like" with them... going out for coffee, lunch, to talk... nothing.
and it's THIS that I'm afraid of becoming.
YET... at the same time, I feel like I'm afraid to approach people. I don't know where it stems from really... I just know it's awkward for ME to go out and socialize...
I don't know how to get out there and meet people to make friends...
I guess I could look into joining a craft club (so long as it's inexpensive!)... but then I get into the feeling of _guilt_ for "leaving my family" at home...
I know... I'm a laundry list of insecurities! lol
please, any thoughts or input is appreciated...
no offense will be taken for truthful words.
thanks