I don't even know where to start...my grandmother died 10 days ago...

**pinetree** · 03-13-2009, 12:11 PM

I am so sorry. I hope things gete better for you soon. She is in your heart, and will be with you forever.

**Monner 1** · 03-13-2009, 07:45 PM

I have to agree talk to her because she will hear you and sending up the balloons is a wonderful idea. She knows you love her in life and in death and just believe that she is with you at all times. God bless and I am so sorry that you are going through all of this.

Monner

**SaucyCranberry** · 03-14-2009, 02:38 PM

All of you, THANK YOU, from the bottom of my heart. I'm sitting here with tears running down my face, and have each time I've checked this thread. All your hugs, sympathy and ideas are a balm to my soul. It's been so healing to be able to share what I'm going through.

I've decided to write her a letter, and also have a balloon release...and I'm going to try and find the most beautiful shades of pinks and greens (and even Victorian type design if I can) because she LOVED that style.

I also got into contact with a different first cousin who is also appalled that there was no funeral or service. We both know that ISN'T what our grandmother planned--she prepaid years ago for all expenses for a funeral/service and we all knew about that, so it wasn't expense that was an issue. So we've contacted our other cousins and we are putting together a collection of our memories about her as a way we can share in a final tribute to her. She IS loved and missed.

It's getting a little better each day.

Thank you all again. xoxo

**Michelle** · 03-14-2009, 03:06 PM

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you.

**dcompton** · 03-14-2009, 03:46 PM

What a terrible experience you have been through. It may always hurt, but time will make it easier. Stay in touch with your cousins and avoid the toxic part of the family as much as you can, especially while this is so fresh.

Take care of yourself, and let us know how you are doing. You can always talk to FV.

**Darlene** · 03-14-2009, 05:07 PM

Tears in my eyes too. Lisa & Patty wrote much of what I would have. She knows you loved her and will keep her memory alive. Along with sending her love, let go of the bitterness of those who don't seem to care with those balloons you release. Smile knowing that you are left with good memories and an overflowing heart. They shall never have that & cannot take that away from you. Yours to treasure forever, love & being loved in return is the greatest thing of all.

**perSue** · 03-14-2009, 11:22 PM

SaucyCranberry,

I think that you and your cousins doing this is a beautiful honor of your Grandmother. And I think she will love it!
Especially the balloons and everything...
Just know she's watching, she's listening every time you talk, she's there, she knows. And I'm sure she appreciates what you and your cousins are planning...

It'll be beautiful.