I am not sure what this is - you might think I am nuts...

**kimmee** · 01-05-2005, 12:13 AM

You might already think I am nuts, I really don't know. I have some weird sensation - I don't know what it is - but I feel like I am not "there" yet - I feel like in the next few years (not this one) I am going to meet someone who is my soul mate - not sexually but a soul mate in that this person shares my love of life and earth and animals and people - I don't understand it - but I feel like I have somehow been touched with this - I don't know - invitation?? Its not coming right away but it feels like I will find someone who cares and wants to help  - I can't explain it - I don't believe in reincarnation or earning wings or destiny so to speak - I really don't believe in luck or juju - If there is a god I think he is having someone tap my shoulder and if there is fate I think this is it calling - but I don't really know about those things -

Believe me I know how horrible it sounds for me to be with Bruce as "wife" and be thinking onward  - but I have this overwhelming sensation that this is "for him" and that after our relationship passes I will be called on to something else - and I feel like Toddy is talking to me and saying something - like my time with mom and Bruce has some sort of purpose but there is something more to do afterwards - not like a dream but more a job or challenge - agh ! I don't kno how to explain it - my life seems to have a role of Duty - can you understand that - yeah I enjoy it - yeah I get alot out of it - but there is something more that I am supposed to learn and perhaps share  --

I don't know maybe I truly am Bi-polar and this is my Grandiosity exposing itsself - cuz it sounds pretty flippin far fetched... or maybe its that 70% of the brain that noone uses cause they don't want to hear it ~ as I write this it sounds like a dissatisfied person looking for love and meaning - but it truly isn't that - its something else - I may end up going to a psychic just to see if they pick up anything - you can never be truly sure about any science, gut feeling , or hobby in this world... you get out of it what you get out of - real or BS it all comes down to what lurks in the subconscious mind...

**matt&roxy** · 01-05-2005, 01:14 AM

Kimmee.........I believe God is tapping every unbeliever on the shoulder and saying, HEY, I'm all you need!!!!!!

**Julia Kimber** · 01-05-2005, 02:05 AM

This all seems logical to me Kimmee!
I often sense things, nothing big but it does happen!
If this is the path you are meant to go along then I believe it will all come out right for you in the end!

Julia

**SCDowney** · 01-05-2005, 10:35 AM

Maybe it's your intuition? Do you, deep down in your heart, believe that Bruce is not the one for you?
I don't think your bi-polar, crazy or anything along those lines. Stop beating yourself up!!

You are a beautiful, considerate, respectful, caring, intelligent woman!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

**guest2** · 01-05-2005, 11:01 AM

Kimmee

I too think that God is trying to tell you something now that you are open to hearing His voice. You are His precious child and He only wants the best for you and does not want to you "settle" for someone or something that is not in your best interest.

**Michele Annette** · 01-05-2005, 11:27 AM

Maybe it's your intuition? Do you, deep down in your heart, believe that Bruce is not the one for you?
I don't think your bi-polar, crazy or anything along those lines. Stop beating yourself up!!
You are a beautiful, considerate, respectful, caring, intelligent woman!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I couldn't have said it better!