Thank you for listening.

**debbiednb** · 08-23-2002, 03:01 PM

Hi, it's me again. I have been doing pretty well over the yrs. trying to handle the attacks, but the last two weeks have been very, very hard and I don't know how much more I can handle before I flip.

You see, I know what is bring it on. I lost a Aunt in March and I just lost my other Aunt about three weeks ago. And the only one left is my mother (out of the sisters). That whole concept is why I am having my attcks. And of course the medication that I am on is not working. Remember I am the one that needs to be on Paxil and my insurance wont cover it. And I can not afford a $175.00 a month for it. I have called alot of different insurances and none will cover it either, because it is a brand name persciption. So I go to my Dr. Tuesday and hopefully he will put me back on Prozac. I don't like taking it because you can get addited to it. But it works, so I really have no choice at this time but to go back on it.

My attacks are, I constantly think about dieing. I have had this feeling yrs. ago but they went away and now I am dealing with them again. And I think it is because of losing both of my aunts within 4 or 5 months apart. Does anybody else deal with this? I have been doing alot of sleeping lately.

Okay, I think that is it for now. Thanks for listening. Debbie.

**heaven** · 08-23-2002, 08:20 PM

oh yes the sleep for excape. Do you have a therapist? if not i would recomment trying to get one. have you tried to get samples of paxil? i know stupid question i am just trying to come up with something for you. is there an cheaper paxil that isn't name brand

**debbiednb** · 08-24-2002, 12:03 AM

I use to have a therapist, yrs ago. But right now I do not. I keep telling my husband I need to talk to some one and he says yes, you do. Because he can see how the attacks affect me. Okay, this is my goal for the coming week. I am going to set up an appointment to see therapist.

As far as getting samples of Paxil. My last Dr. did give me samples, but this Dr. I have now, has not even suggest samples. But you know what, when I go in to see him Tuesday, I am going to ask him about samples.

Okay, get this. Paxil comes in generic form. BUT they do not put in on the market. Eckerds told me the reason they do not make it available is because they would lose money because so many people are on it.

I would love to talk to someone who makes that decision on what medication goes on the market. I would give them a piece of my mind.

Humana Ins. told me to check into www.canadiandrug.com since they are located in Canada their med's are alot cheaper than the USA. Haven't tried them yet but I am going to check it out.

Thanks again, Debbie.

**heaven** · 08-24-2002, 12:12 AM

good stick to it and ask your doctor for samples it can't hurt. do you all make so much money that you can't get medicaid. I know it is none of my business but if it helps pay for your meds. why not. hope you feel better. Yes canada has cheaper drugs than the us don't ask me why. i can't diet every time i think of starting one i eat more. just make sure that you do eat expecally if all you want to do is sleep. I have been on prozac for 4 years and even though i have heard that it is addictive i don't feel that way. anyway if you want to mail me it is fine. heavens@mtintouch.net
i will be thinking about you

**debbiednb** · 08-24-2002, 12:22 AM

I am on Disableity. On you hand they say I make to much for Mecaid. But on the other hand they tell me that the government is paying for my medical. We'll if they are paying for it why don't they cover Paxil. They say, oh I don't know. We'll that don't do me much good.

I tell you what. Just talking to you'll it has helped so much. You are all wonderful. Thanks from the bottom of my heart. Debbie.

**heaven** · 08-24-2002, 12:26 AM

oh i didn't relize that you are on medicaid i thought they would cover that i know even with mine i can barely afford my prozac. i am glad we are helping but still make that appointment. we are rooting for you. Heaven