Trying to live by Simple Abundance
by, 12-03-2008 at 04:35 PM (1162 Views)
Well I have read that book and the 2nd part of it, and believe me I am trying very hard to incorporate that into my daily living, but all I can say is ugh!!!
I know deep down I am looking for financial serenity not financial security, but today had to be a very bad day.
My account is overdrawn, and since I work in Baltimore, (yep, im' one of the many looney birds) who commute on a daily basis, plus pay $8.00 parking a day. So if you can see where I am going with this.
I just broke down in tears, I have been getting so good with the managing my checkbook, but something came out of the account that I forgot to log in and when I went to the ATM it said insufficient funds!
Can I tell you how frustrated and absolutely sick I was. I called into my manager who is an absolute angel...She said there was no problem with me missing work and that I could easily make up the time.
That is great and I am very appreciative, but all I can think about is how much I feel like a failure. This is stupid, why is everything so difficult.
I make great money, hence the reason I commute, my partner works about a mile away from our house, but her pay is less because the company she works for has been giving all the employees Fridays off because they are slow.
I know we are in a recession and I absolutely hate it. But it is so hard to budget when I dont knwo the exact pay that is brought home weekly. So I find myself paying what we can pay, i.e. mortgage,car payment, utilities, and the rest comes out of what is left over.
I feel myself wishing for tax season so I can get money back to get caught up. Is everything like this, is this what it is suppose to be like?
I really do not know. All I do know is the stress of worrying about money is killing me, slowly but surely.
I think I am going to use this as my venting board, if not i'll just burst.
Any advise if anyone is reading this? Again, I am new to this board so I am not quite sure if people usually post replys or what...but all I can say is i'm gonna vent vent vent or burst burst burst.
Day one... Tomorrow. I am starting a new slate, I will reassess my funds in the bank account, and try to write everything down that is purchased. I need to get this under control, because i hate this feeling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!