A week on the ranch (February 02 - February 08)
by, 02-09-2009 at 12:14 AM (994 Views)
Another week of extremes for me. The weather started out like spring, and I am listening to the lightning and rain pouring down as I type this entry. I spent last Sunday enjoying my home and my new resident bunny, then I jumped in my car and drove to the bay area to arrest a drug dealer or two, then back home and on the couch to recover from a cold that won't go away. Today, I felt like I had come full circle again, as I sat with Polly this morning, grooming her fluffy coat, smelling the wonderful aroma of veggies drying in the dehydrator on the counter, and trying to crochet a blanket for my bed.
I was watching Mamma Mia tonight, and the song "Dancing Queen" came on. I never much liked that song, but both the lyrics and the fact that they were from ABBA got me to thinking. I remember hearing that song when I was much younger and not thinking that much about it. Now, hearing it, it made me reflect on how mature and downright stodgy I was back when I was young and that song was new, and it made me wonder how much fun I missed because I was too busy growing up. Then it made me wonder if, twenty years from now, I would be regretting things I missed now because I was too busy thinking about tomorrow to enjoy today. (I know, pretty profound for a stupid musical that was created just to showcase ABBA songs. What can I say, I was feeling profound tonight.)
I spend a lot of time thinking that things will be different in the future. When I'm thinner, when I don't have to work anymore, when the house is paid off, so on and so forth. And I think I sometimes overlook the wonderful things that could happen now while I'm busy thinking about what should happen down the road.
So today, I vow to try to appreciate the todays in my life, even if maybe they aren't exactly what I project as the perfect life yet. I vow to be a little more spontaneous and a little more fun-loving and a little more appreciative of my life, and to treat it a little less like a place marker for a life to come.