03/28/2009 - P.H.A.T. Chick Journal
by, 03-29-2009 at 12:59 AM (1585 Views)
Okay, through the food list first, because it is easy to forget! Breakfast was steel-cut oats with rice milk. One cup of coffee with sugar and cream. Lunch was a 140-cal Fiber One energy bar and a hard-boiled egg. I also juiced five blood oranges and had a glass of juice. Dinner was a salad. I had either 8 or 10 glasses of water (couldn't remember, so I had another 2 just to be safe), and I washed down the multi-vitamin with a final swig of water, just as a chaser.
I mentioned, in the Lose-A-Pound-A-Week Challenge, that I have had trouble staying motivated in my weight loss efforts. I decided, today, that motivation does not necessarily come from within, and that sometimes, I have to do what is right and what is necessary, and not just what motivates me. I suspect there is a part of me that is motivated to eat unhealthy food, or that is motivated to sit like a lump on the couch and watch t.v, or that is motivated to do all the things that keep me from reaching my goals. So I can't sit and wait to be motivated, and I can't trust that the motivation I feel will always be the correct motivation.
That said, I've decided that I just have to bear down and get the things done that must be done, regardless of whether I am "motivated" to do so. I believe that the motivation will ultimately come, but maybe not until my goal has already been reached and I am well on my way to maintaining it, just as a matter of routine. Or maybe it will come, and then some part of me will try to sabotage it, as I have done in the past, with the thought that "Oh, now I'm thin, so I can eat however I want...just for today."
So today, I got back on the treadmill. The unmotivated part of me creaked and groaned and thought, "Oh, there is no way I can do half an hour on this thing. Maybe I should start with fifteen minutes and work my way back up slowly." But a little voice in the back of my mind, trying to be heard above the complaining, said, "Wow, it feels good to be pushing myself again. Yes, I CAN do half an hour. I am going to beat this slump, get back on track, and get to my target weight. I am going to MAINTAIN my target weight. I am never going to see 150 lbs again, and some day I'll never see 145 lbs again. I am going to know what it is like to be strong and thin and healthy."
And I did 30 minutes on the treadmill.
Oh, and I did my sit-ups, too!
Today, I am giving myself an A+, because I got my head turned around, and I really feel like I'm back in the game!