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03/28/2009 - P.H.A.T. Chick Journal

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by , 03-29-2009 at 12:59 AM (1578 Views)
Okay, through the food list first, because it is easy to forget! Breakfast was steel-cut oats with rice milk. One cup of coffee with sugar and cream. Lunch was a 140-cal Fiber One energy bar and a hard-boiled egg. I also juiced five blood oranges and had a glass of juice. Dinner was a salad. I had either 8 or 10 glasses of water (couldn't remember, so I had another 2 just to be safe), and I washed down the multi-vitamin with a final swig of water, just as a chaser.

I mentioned, in the Lose-A-Pound-A-Week Challenge, that I have had trouble staying motivated in my weight loss efforts. I decided, today, that motivation does not necessarily come from within, and that sometimes, I have to do what is right and what is necessary, and not just what motivates me. I suspect there is a part of me that is motivated to eat unhealthy food, or that is motivated to sit like a lump on the couch and watch t.v, or that is motivated to do all the things that keep me from reaching my goals. So I can't sit and wait to be motivated, and I can't trust that the motivation I feel will always be the correct motivation.

That said, I've decided that I just have to bear down and get the things done that must be done, regardless of whether I am "motivated" to do so. I believe that the motivation will ultimately come, but maybe not until my goal has already been reached and I am well on my way to maintaining it, just as a matter of routine. Or maybe it will come, and then some part of me will try to sabotage it, as I have done in the past, with the thought that "Oh, now I'm thin, so I can eat however I want...just for today."

So today, I got back on the treadmill. The unmotivated part of me creaked and groaned and thought, "Oh, there is no way I can do half an hour on this thing. Maybe I should start with fifteen minutes and work my way back up slowly." But a little voice in the back of my mind, trying to be heard above the complaining, said, "Wow, it feels good to be pushing myself again. Yes, I CAN do half an hour. I am going to beat this slump, get back on track, and get to my target weight. I am going to MAINTAIN my target weight. I am never going to see 150 lbs again, and some day I'll never see 145 lbs again. I am going to know what it is like to be strong and thin and healthy."

And I did 30 minutes on the treadmill.

Oh, and I did my sit-ups, too!

Today, I am giving myself an A+, because I got my head turned around, and I really feel like I'm back in the game!

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  1. mauimagic's Avatar
    You are a beautiful, thoughtful person. What you wrote really touched my heart - so true, so simple. You go girl!!
  2. frugal-fannie's Avatar
    So true, sometimes the motivation comes after but you are sticking to the plan. Great job.
  3. Debbie-cat's Avatar
    Your post on the Lose-A-Pound-A-Week Challenge really hit home and has helped me to turn around as well. Thanks for the analysis of what could be wrong to keep us from reaching that target weight!

    Good for you on a job well done today!