hey guys...
I guess I needed to share this with people who maybe know where I am coming from, have gone through it themselves or just plain old will listen to me.
I am currently a senior in college, graduating in May and I have 21 credits. I got through my first round of tests with all B's and am now on round two (of four). I know that I need to study and do well - I really want to get A's in most of my classes - but I am just so burned out and tired. I'm tired of trying to find time in my busy schedule to keep up with everything. I'm tired of cramming useless knowledge into my head that I know I won't be using in my future. I'm tired of having to worry about trying to do well...
One of the things that is really getting me down is that my entired college career I wanted to earn a 3.5 in order to graduate with honors. In high school, I missed graduating with honors by 0.02 (you needed a 3.6 and I had like a 3.58)...and now here I sit, my last semester with a GPA of 3.48. I did the math, and if I get only 2 B's this semester (which i can do if I try really hard) I can get above a 3.5 and officially "graduate with honors." So i got all excited and determined to work hard - then I realized that the final grades for this semester won't be included in my cumulative GPA until AFTER the graduation ceremony. I called today and checked with our registration and records office...and even if I get all A's this semester I can't walk the ceremony with honors like I've wanted to so badly, because my GPA won't be high enough by the ceremony.
I wanted this so badly, that I'm crying because it's so close but yet so far. My problem now is that I feel like the stress of trying really hard this semester is not worth it if I can't walk with honors. It's good to have above a 3.5 in case someone ever looks at my GPA in the future or in case I want to go to grad school, but in all honesty I don't ever see myself going to grad school. I'm tired of school and I'm stressed out and I just want to be done. And I hate that no matter how hard I work I can't walk with honors like I wanted to.... and I'm annoyed that no matter how hard I try I always miss the mark by 0.02!!!
Anyone else ever feel this way? I feel so... almost like a failure. Even though a 3.48 is still really good and I know I won't let myself do bad this semester, I'm just so dissappointed because once again I miss something I really wanted.
I'll take any encouragement I can get - I have 2 more exams this week that I don't feel like studying for because I feel like it's pointless. Don't worry.. I will study though. I'm too much of a perfectionist to just blow it off completely.
I guess I needed to share this with people who maybe know where I am coming from, have gone through it themselves or just plain old will listen to me.
I am currently a senior in college, graduating in May and I have 21 credits. I got through my first round of tests with all B's and am now on round two (of four). I know that I need to study and do well - I really want to get A's in most of my classes - but I am just so burned out and tired. I'm tired of trying to find time in my busy schedule to keep up with everything. I'm tired of cramming useless knowledge into my head that I know I won't be using in my future. I'm tired of having to worry about trying to do well...
One of the things that is really getting me down is that my entired college career I wanted to earn a 3.5 in order to graduate with honors. In high school, I missed graduating with honors by 0.02 (you needed a 3.6 and I had like a 3.58)...and now here I sit, my last semester with a GPA of 3.48. I did the math, and if I get only 2 B's this semester (which i can do if I try really hard) I can get above a 3.5 and officially "graduate with honors." So i got all excited and determined to work hard - then I realized that the final grades for this semester won't be included in my cumulative GPA until AFTER the graduation ceremony. I called today and checked with our registration and records office...and even if I get all A's this semester I can't walk the ceremony with honors like I've wanted to so badly, because my GPA won't be high enough by the ceremony.
I wanted this so badly, that I'm crying because it's so close but yet so far. My problem now is that I feel like the stress of trying really hard this semester is not worth it if I can't walk with honors. It's good to have above a 3.5 in case someone ever looks at my GPA in the future or in case I want to go to grad school, but in all honesty I don't ever see myself going to grad school. I'm tired of school and I'm stressed out and I just want to be done. And I hate that no matter how hard I work I can't walk with honors like I wanted to.... and I'm annoyed that no matter how hard I try I always miss the mark by 0.02!!!
Anyone else ever feel this way? I feel so... almost like a failure. Even though a 3.48 is still really good and I know I won't let myself do bad this semester, I'm just so dissappointed because once again I miss something I really wanted.
I'll take any encouragement I can get - I have 2 more exams this week that I don't feel like studying for because I feel like it's pointless. Don't worry.. I will study though. I'm too much of a perfectionist to just blow it off completely.