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if some of you noticed I havent been on lately is because Ive been going through seperation. My husband as of almost 3 weeks ago told me after March break for us- that we were through after almost 20 years. he says hes not in love with me and hasnt felt like for about 4 years. and heres the number for social services call. I cant help how I feel he says.
week before back at our friends place , I knew something was up. The first 4 days treated me like crap and dotted on her. skirt tailed her, flirted non stop. Of course when confronted theirs nothing going between both parties. Bull- I put all the duckies in a row Im not in denial and see whats going on. he treats me like crap and her a queen. and all the times I thought I could trust my husband with her alone and when he helped her- I guess I was wrong.
too many things keeping popping up. and after 2 days when he told me he was through and left he high tailed back to her place- excuse babysit the house - yet he never came back the bday easter day weekend to be with kids. I think it was all planned.
he turned 40 on easter day. he is going through mid life crisis no doubt about it. dyed the hair pitch black , depression at times( which i thought it was over loss of his best freind(my cousin). greiving. fot the last little while.
he told me he felt like he could never talk to me when he was leaving-and but guess what she picking up the pieces and he admitted he can talk to her.
the way he treated me, pushes me away then left me- was disrespect and didnt care if kids saw him flirt over there.
Im so angry and hurt. he says no councilling he stayed in for 4 years too long. Im devasted at times.this is not my husband.
not his character.
Im moving on but the hurt that she may be in the picture down the road is hard.
Im making plans , next week im looking into going back to school in fall and ideas of maybe medical assistant.2 years of that .
but for now with councilling Im barely getting by. emotional wise. he and the kids were my whole life. I know that was wrong. and with no extra money it will tight for awhile till I can get up and find something even part time till school starts. socail services are helping.
Im starting over a chapter i didnt think id ever go through. Im angry, hurt and devastated. overwhelmed and trying to take 1 day at a time. Ill try to be on when i can.
week before back at our friends place , I knew something was up. The first 4 days treated me like crap and dotted on her. skirt tailed her, flirted non stop. Of course when confronted theirs nothing going between both parties. Bull- I put all the duckies in a row Im not in denial and see whats going on. he treats me like crap and her a queen. and all the times I thought I could trust my husband with her alone and when he helped her- I guess I was wrong.
too many things keeping popping up. and after 2 days when he told me he was through and left he high tailed back to her place- excuse babysit the house - yet he never came back the bday easter day weekend to be with kids. I think it was all planned.
he turned 40 on easter day. he is going through mid life crisis no doubt about it. dyed the hair pitch black , depression at times( which i thought it was over loss of his best freind(my cousin). greiving. fot the last little while.
he told me he felt like he could never talk to me when he was leaving-and but guess what she picking up the pieces and he admitted he can talk to her.
the way he treated me, pushes me away then left me- was disrespect and didnt care if kids saw him flirt over there.
Im so angry and hurt. he says no councilling he stayed in for 4 years too long. Im devasted at times.this is not my husband.
not his character.
Im moving on but the hurt that she may be in the picture down the road is hard.
Im making plans , next week im looking into going back to school in fall and ideas of maybe medical assistant.2 years of that .
but for now with councilling Im barely getting by. emotional wise. he and the kids were my whole life. I know that was wrong. and with no extra money it will tight for awhile till I can get up and find something even part time till school starts. socail services are helping.
Im starting over a chapter i didnt think id ever go through. Im angry, hurt and devastated. overwhelmed and trying to take 1 day at a time. Ill try to be on when i can.
One day you'll be able to say "Who's Crying Now?"
