I'm really not sure how to start this letter, I'm not very good at sharing my aches and pains, but I thought if I got it off my chest it might make me feel better..... I haven't felt well for a very long time(years) I have a lousy doctor who has basically ignored me for years and tried to get me to take anti-depressants rather than get to the bottom of what's making me sick...... Finally after a big fight with her the last time she ordered some more tests.... I had an appointment scheduled with her yesterday, but because she is too chickensh*t to tell me in person, she sends me the lab results that say I have something called "Polycythemia Vera" She told me yesterday that she suspected it, but needed further tests done, if that's true, she has suspected it for more than a year...... She couldn't even tell me what to expect from this disease, she said I talk to the specialist.... She is as I said too chickensh*t to tell me.... I already read on it before seeing her. She even talked to me for 15 minutes and it wasn't till I asked her "Do you think I have PV????" That she even mentioned it..... It has a 100% mortality rate, and there are some treatments but no cure. don't you think that may have been worth mentioning........ I haven't talked to the kids, that will come later when I know more, dh hasn't really said anything to me since we found out, he just keeps asking me if I'm alright.... I'm really angry, angry at the doctor, angry at everything......